Lesson learnt

Last weekend I learned that

It is possible to study 8-12 HOURS PER DAY without neglecting physical health

Lesson learnt, but it is still hard to do it perfectly. My form and stamina are just not at that level yet. But I know it is possible with practice. Numerous plie for me to do. Unfortunately, hard for me to admit that my progress is basicly in the wrong direction throughout this weekdays compared to the last weekend.

Another weekend but I dont have the time to sing friday eventhough there is no classes. Though I will still be wondering should I take the back seat or the front seat(in the library). It is 3 for 3. Desperate times calls for desperate measure. Time to push my limit.

I am going to use this desperation to perfect that form and train my stamina. Ditch the plie and directly practice do the turns and the jumps for the coming sessional. Hopefully I can do at least 80percent of the piece perfectly, and use and maintain the momentum so that I can be 100percent for the 1 month left for what really matters; the finale.

For anyone who already lost it, I specifically mentioned physical health, leaving mental health in dark, cloudy fog. Mental health is hard to assess, especially to myself who even in normal optimal condition have a state of mental health which are questionable at best.

The forecast for mental health is dark... Really dark. Expect Darren Aronofsky dark. I am going to bleed black feathers ala Natalie Portman. Not good but it is necessary. On the bright side, I am looking forward for that moment with Mila Kunis.

I am going full exam mode for about 1month. Even cut my hair real short to help with clear mind. Hopefully I can make it to the second year mbbs without any complications obstacle. *craziness guaranteed.

Help me with your prayers. I need all the help I can get